I am sitting in my cluttered office/room/bad episode of hoarders trying to clear out clutter and ready myself for a yard sale. My mother heavy on my heart and mind. My sister as well. I found a small God Box I received from a friend I met playing poker on facebook. Next came across a pack of stickers my best friend Tammy's mom, well was going to say gave me, but have to come clean and admit I took them when I stayed with her once. I had to admit that and will have to send her an apology. She will surely think I am nuts, I am, I just have to be able to say to people with conviction that I don't lie, steal or cheat and can be trusted. Truly hoped at the time she would bless me with some of the "God fodder" she had, stickers, books, writing paper and when she started too and couldn't bring herself to, I learned how taking what isn't yours ruins the blessing you might have received from someone and how you ruin their opportunity to give something and feel good.
A giant pause there. I sat down thinking so many things and questioning so many things as usual. Haven't had much opportunity to write as interruptions are constant here. Husband out of a dead sleep and banging around now. So it stops here and I will attempt to finish a thought later some time.
My deep need to save the world, my hope that life WILL someday be fair, and the want to keep my Facebook friends from removing me have finally pushed me here.....to try to turn it all into something useful or understandable, or that will make a difference for someone.
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