Yet another famous quote from my life. That was my husband. That was also how I felt yesterday driving home from dropping off the kids. There is just not enough time and resources to put all that I think, better yet all that I feel onto something readable.
Yesterday was my friend Julie's' (passed away on Christmas) husbands' birthday and my husbands' sister Natalie's (funeral was on Saturday) birthday. I hadn't connected the two until yesterday. I had been trying to plan the party of the century for this coming Saturday for so many reasons. One, because growing up I was just about the only person who didn't destroy my mom's house having them. Two, for Dave, since Julie isn't here and she was pretty "larger than life" and would have done something exciting. Three, for my husband, to take his mind off of his sister (if that is possible). Four, for me, I need people close to me. Close enough to hug and laugh and see their faces. Five, mid life crisis, needed to do something that didn't scream "46, old, over the hill". Six, for everyone else who has lost someone lately or ever and get them all together to have a little fun, blow off some steam. I guess it just wasn't meant to be.
The rest of the day was spent on here cleaning up files. Still wondering about the guy in the van that seems to be watching our house. Jennifer called (my friend from grade school) I had told her I was thinking of her the other day. Was nice to know she needed it as she had been to the doctors for her disability. She had been on my mind many times over the years but could never find her. Thankfully for facebook she eventually found me. Turns out over the time we were apart she went thru hell. Some similar to mine. More medical. It is nice to have someone to talk to about my "sixth sense" like it's a regular part of the conversation.
So now of course it is tomorrow. Had stopped to ask Julie's husband about posting a picture of her or them here. Possibly to give this thing life. I couldn't possibly begin to verbalize a description of her that would do her justice. No response from him.
Had a ton of thoughts in my head on the way to pick up my kids from school, but by the time I get home, of course they are gone. Hence the need for brain hook up to stenographer equipment.
My deep need to save the world, my hope that life WILL someday be fair, and the want to keep my Facebook friends from removing me have finally pushed me here.....to try to turn it all into something useful or understandable, or that will make a difference for someone.
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