Funny how today would have normally had me so depressed I wouldn't be functioning. However, I have come to the realization that any "good" days in my are usually noticed in hindsight as I have no money or resources to plan my good days (ie: vacation, honeymoon, celebration) and no one close to me ever feels inspired to surprise me in any way with or for anything. No flowers or small gifts or just "something that made them think of me". They also do not appreciate such things and never "feel the love" when I do those things for them.
I had an entire full page of epiphany regarding my life and it finally almost made sense. Then I cut it from Facebook and attempted to move it here, copied and pasted something else thinking I had copied the post and now it is gone. I don't have the time or the energy to conjure that up again.
My deep need to save the world, my hope that life WILL someday be fair, and the want to keep my Facebook friends from removing me have finally pushed me here.....to try to turn it all into something useful or understandable, or that will make a difference for someone.
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