Thank you. Diverted for Length and Focus, From Facebook of Course.

Thank you all for being here with me.  For listening, giving advice, prayers, caring, whatever you are able to do aside from writing me off, deleting me, or just walking away.  I don't mean to freak out, yell, whine, cry, I truly shoot for drama free days.  Always have.  I just want normal.  I just am normal.  I have always done the best I could and have never just sat back and taken a free ride ever.  Really long story short.  I think at this point I could just make it all work, figure it out, fight for whatever but I am missing 1 part of my whole life.  I have been in a state of shock since I turned in my step dad to Mesa PD, lost my job at Adult Probation due to it and my prozac technically.  It was all a bigger nightmare day by day until Aug. 5th, 2004.  I have been just going thru the motions each day but I am still stuck back there and everything else that goes wrong since just hits me 10 times harder than it normally should.  I never thought I'd still not have my child 9 years later and may not live to see her come back to me.  I have done everything legally possible to do and morally try to be a decent human.  I just don't want to die from the stress of assholes stealing from me and leave my kids without a mom.