This Is How My Morning Began. A Little View Into 2 Lives---One is Mine, the Other I hope will Be Fine.

I logged into Web-sleuths to check on my dad's murder case blog there.  Couldn't help but notice the request for help from someone going to a parole board hearing for a child molester.  I wrote this letter.  Of course didn't proof read it.  I am still unable to focus or stop obsessing when I write if I try to go back and read it.  

They have all but given up on my case there it seems.  I need to have my record cleared so people will treat me like an equal.  Sad how it looks worse than any record my step monster will have.

Seems I made the deadline.  Now I guess I can hope he is never released or I probably put my own family in danger.  I wouldn't have let him make it to trial if I could help it.

Dear Ms. Tillman:

Your e-mail regarding Mr. Brunstetter will be placed in his file for consideration at his upcoming parole hearing.  The Parole Commission appreciates the interest you have taken in this case.

Sincerely;

Ruth Ann Ogle, Program Manager (Hearings)

From: Blumberg, David
Sent: Wednesday, July 29, 2015 7:48 AM
To: Ogle, Ruth
Subject: Fwd: No Parole for Pedophiles. Why Would Anyone Allow a Victim to be Victimized Again-Donald Scott Brunstetter Parole Hearing.

Sent from my iPhone

Begin forwarded message:

From: Tami Tillman <tamijt4@msn.com>
Date: July 29, 2015 at 5:53:44 AM EDT
To: <dblumberg@dpscs.state.md.us>
Subject: No Parole for Pedophiles.  Why Would Anyone Allow a Victim to be Victimized Again-Donald Scott Brunstetter Parole Hearing.

PLEASE MAKE ANYONE EVER CONVICTED OF SEXUAL CRIMES AGAINST CHILDREN AND EXAMPLE FOR THE OTHERS.  MAKE A STATEMENT THAT IT IS NOT OK, THEY WON'T GET AWAY WITH IT, AND THEY WON'T BE GIVEN A CHANCE TO DO IT AGAIN.

I do not know the people involved with this case personally, but truly I do, I am a survivor.  Obviously with the number of charges this monster was sentenced for, he is guilty, the ones charged with originally most likely barely come close to what he is actually guilty of.

I could go on for hours.  I am unsure why the judge was lenient on this inhuman monster.  I can only imagine the frightening thought that he empathized with him.   People serve longer sentences for DUI without a victim, or armed robbery without a victim because they could have hurt someone.  Child molesters don't even carry a weapon.  Their crime is premeditated.  It is reoccurring and they have convinced themselves it is not a crime.  They can not be reformed.

There is no price to put on innocence.  There is no restitution to give a child who lived without trust, lived being berated, humiliated, made to believe they somehow deserved to be violated in ways not even most adults would chose to be in a consensual relationship.  Why would anyone even consider letting someone. capable of the subhuman acts of even 1 of these charges on any child 1 time, roam the earth with other children or humans?  They should not have rights any longer. 

If you release him you sentence the victim to a whole new round of torture.  Fearing he may be around any corner.  And by letting him out you are telling her that what happened to her was not that bad.  Not that important.  That he was right, no one would protect her, no one would care and they would shun her if anyone knew.  If you have never been abused, assaulted, raped, sexually molested, groped, or even verbally molested by someone you are lucky.  I refrain from repeating the things that are whispered in a child's ear to keep them from screaming, crying, telling someone because I wouldn't want anyone else to experience that hell.  If they are kept away somewhere where no one can hear them scream it is worse. 

Please refuse to let him be paroled.  I don’t care about his "good behavior".  There are no under aged females in "cell block H".  Of course he would be on his best behavior.  He wants to get back out where the girls are.  I have 4 daughters.  Set a standard today.  Refuse to be a party to ruining the life of another child.  The only way to even come close to him paying for what he did to her would be to leave him naked, alone, with no resources and sewing his mouth shut. 

I have managed to make it through 39 years since my hell started.  20 years since I turned mine in and watched him lawyer up and threaten to sue me for defamation of character.  Victims luckily won't know all that they have lost as they are usually tough, trying to care for others and if they live long enough they will realize they missed out on having a first love, first kiss, the choice to make love the first time.  They have the first nightmare, the next flashback, the PTSD kicks in during some encounter with a new boyfriend or husband.  The horrible memories they manage to stuff down come bubbling up when they hear a child scream or hear of someone being raped or assaulted.  Luckily I can't describe what happens to victims of molestation and rape that don't have a coping mechanism, that become predators themselves, but the person who victimized them certainly should not get 1 for 2 or 2 for 1 for good behavior.  They should get and additional year for every person that they affected when the stole the innocence of a child.  They should not be given a chance to "speak their peace" or plead their case. 

By letting this monster free you are screaming horrible inhumane things in the ears of every child, teen, adult, grandparent by your actions.  You are also subjecting the rest of the human race to being a possible victim.  Child molesters should not have another chance.  Almost any other crime could be considered for rehabilitation or have some basis that could be considered for forgiveness and may be able to refrain from reoffending.  Child molesters  don't deserve that consideration.  They not only stole the soul and innocence of a child, their trust, their love of others, and it wasn't an accident.  It was repetitive and calculated and not only did they think they wouldn't be caught, they blamed the victim, isolated them, put fear in them and didn't care.  They are worse than murders, at least if a victim dies they are out of their misery, this victim is still alive don't be party to raping her all over again certainly don't sentence the rest of the human race to being a future victim. 

Please deny this parole.  He is a threat to the victim even if he never comes within 200 feet of her or another child.  I can't imagine even sitting and listening to his plea for parole.  Any human would be physically ill.  Any judge should be offended.  No matter what he says he is lying.  He didn't think he should be arrested in the first place.  He is angry and will be seeking revenge.  How scary is a human that thinks they have a right to do these things to any human and they are the victim for sitting in jail.  If not revenge he will be seeking somewhere to unleash that sickness that can never be cured.  If he actually felt guilty for what he did he would take his own life.  That would be the only way to clear your mind of such hideous crimes. 

I write this with verbiage that implies I know this man  or the victim, because I truly do.  I have been through counseling, I have been blessed with friends who work in the psychology, counseling, court, sex offender case load of probation, and have been there for other victims.  I do know them.  I know no human should have to watch someone convicted of any sexual act against any unconsenting human or animal should not be free to live amongst us.  If the victim was a child--even more so.  If they were an authority figure or worse parent or family member it should not even be suggested.  They should live in a hole with some constant reminder that it is not ok, you can't give back what you took therefore you sit there where you can't even consider doing it to someone else.

NO RELEASE FOR PEDOPHILES OR PREDATORS.  THEY CAN'T BE REFORMED.  THEY HAVE MASTERED MANIPULATION AND LYING DON'T FALL FOR IT.  THEY WILL DO ANYTHING AND SAY ANYTHING AND HAVE NO REGARD FOR LIFE.  THEY HAVE TAKEN A SMALL BASICALLY HELPLESS CHILD AND REDUCED THEM TO LESS THAN HUMAN.  IMAGINE BEING CAPABLE OF TELLING A SMALL CHILD THAT IF THEY TELL ANYONE THEY WON'T BELIEVE THEM.  THEY WON'T HELP THEM, THEY WILL HATE THEM, AND SEND THEM AWAY AND THEN PERFORMING ACTS ON THEM THAT CONSENTING ADULTS WOULDN'T ALLOW OR ANY SEXUAL ACT AT ALL ON A PERSON WHO CAN'T EVEN GET THEIR OWN LUNCH YET.

AND NOW I HAVE GONE ON.  THERE ARE NO WORDS IN SHORT FORM TO EXPRESS HOW WRONG IT IS TO ALLOW THIS TO EVEN BE CONSIDERED FOR HEARING.  I DON'T JUST SEND THESE OUT TO ANYONE.  I HAVE NEVER EVEN THOUGHT OF DOING SO.  I CAME ACROSS THEY PLEA WHILE LOOKING INTO MY BIO-DAD'S MURDER..  I COULD FORGIVE HIS MURDERER BEFORE I WOULD EVER CONSIDER EVEN GIVING THIS BOTTOM FEEDER A CHANCE AT FREEDOM.

TAMI TILLMAN

PHOENIX, AZ

MOTHER OF 4 DAUGHTERS

SURVIVOR OF MOLESTATION

RECOVERING ADDICT