At the End of the Day Do People Like This Ever Realize They Suck?

The girlfriend of the father of one friend's son and my sisters son replied this to my request for his whereabouts.

Holly set your nickname to jackass.

Holly set the emoji to 💩.(that is a pile of shit btw)

1:08PM

The same person who dares to act like she is in my shoes with my child being taken and kept from me, when she clearly is the polar opposite of anything i am. The same person who got in a accident and left my information for victim. Who sat and got high while we took her newborn son who had that cough from hell that was killing children. And finally couldn't stay at our house because she couldn't respect my children and not use their bottle brush to clean her child's toys or get out of bed so my husband could get out the door past her to go to work.

If anyone runs into Holly I'd love a heads up, I have a few things I'd like to clarify for her and some aggression that needs direction. At least I realize now he doesn't deserve to be anywhere near those boys or affecting them. Him, my step idiot (donald thomas weaver===so sue me asshole) and a few choice others should be the ones to kill themselves or to attempt to and get to suffer for the lives they ruined......but they won't.

UPDATE--she changed it to "contact" and emoji "thumbs up" lol I shot her a quick note and thanked her for being human. may 7, 2016

Laughing now as I actually stopped to think, OMG, am I a total hypocrite and this is me? Do I suck so much that so many find lying to me and screwing me over justified? Maybe I am one of "them"? I even have a hard time saying with much conviction that it is not me and I don't.

It doesn't feel better to sit virtually alone and watch while another person passes away and their actual life that I was clueless to unfolds and leaves me feeling like some lost moron. For caring and thinking of people who found no problem in lying to me and to others about me because it was easier than loving me back, telling the truth or saying they were sorry. That they not only hated me enough to not just walk away, they went the extra mile to dump all their bullshit and lies on me and watch me suffer. Even in dying could not be compelled to come to clean. To say something that would fix what they had done or at least just spare me the pain of losing them by telling me that i was a fool to have ever cared.

no wonder helping other people or understanding their pain makes me feel better. because i can't do it for myself or don't know how, but I can not turn into all those people. I usually don't pass judgement or even share this sort of gossip. Because i truly hate saying horrible things about others and it doesn't improve my life. I always hope they will "see the light" and say they are sorry or change their ways and they don't or won't...............rambling rambling, crying, pondering.

I almost feel like I will come out of this mess a normal, well semi normal, human. Then on the other hand i fear that it will all make sense and my head will clear and mind will rest but sadly i will then die of a broken heart. Then it will have all been for nothing.......I swear if the afterlife is like an episode of the twilight zone and I find that there is higher power and we were it's Sea Monkey collection I don't know what I will do.